Home is wherever I am. I have learnt that no one is truly there for us when we need them, however we, ourselves, I, are. I am always with me. I will always be there for me. I have never let me down.
Moving abroad is a journey, both in its external movement from one place in which a person resides, to another. Often, transatlantic. Through this journey, I have also made internal discoveries, acceptances and a state of peacefulness, clarity and understanding within myself and who I am as an individual. What am I really like, and how do I cope in certain situations – these are questions I have asked myself, and now have answers too. I know myself better, I know what I am like, how I react, and how to deal with situations that do not suit me. It sounds incredibly cliche, but I understand how my mind works, and what my personality is. I have come to accept it, love it, and own it. I am me.
We are all constantly changing, evolving and growing – you are not the same person you were yesterday, nor will you be the same person tomorrow. Our thoughts shape us, our thoughts change us, and our environment is important. Our external environment influences and “dictates” our thoughts. By removing ourselves from one environment we can change our thought process, our thoughts, our feelings, and bring peace/ despair. We all have a choice, to stay, or to go. We are lucid, we are fluid, we are not fixed. Never convince yourself that you are fixed, that nothing can be changed. Small actions and thoughts can have big changes and consequences.
I am happier abroad, I am happier when I am removed from the society which raised me. I despise it, yet I always check the news for updates. I loathe it, yet I am its product. I crave it, yet I don’t and I push it aside, like an unwanted vegetable in my roast dinner. I am it, I am a millennial and I struggle to make my mark in my society.
So I run, run away, run as fast as I can, as far as I can. To a society so different that I am an alien, yet I feel at home. I feel happy. I feel part of something bigger.